I see you, finding safety in a clean, orderly house. You're not able to go to bed at night until everything is back in its rightful place. I know the lies anxiety tells you. That you’re a failure because you didn’t finish everything you should have today. That your kids deserve a better mother, a mother who is able to do it all. Worry about everything and nothing simultaneously gnaws at you. There are even times when you worry that you aren’t worried enough! The simplest of tasks become nearly impossible since it feels like you are doing them while walking through thick mud, in heavy fog. The prospect of any seemingly insignificant change to your carefully crafted schedule is completely overwhelming and sends you into a ... Read More...
How I Broke Up With Mom Guilt
It was approaching 2:00pm, and not much had gotten done in the way of housework after a morning of playing, reading, and lessons. There were toys all over the living room, dirty laundry still in piles waiting to be washed, and dishes stacked in the sink. Growing anxious about the messes and the shrinking amount of hours left in my afternoon to tackle them, I freaked a little a lot. I told the kids to start cleaning up, and got major attitude from my son. I forget the exact words he said, but they felt like a punch in the gut. I sent him to his room and went back to sorting clothes. And the tears began to sting my eyes. "I give, and I give, and I give, Lord! Everything I teach and instill and pour into them. The sacrifices I make ... Read More...